Thursday, September 21, 2006

The Club

(An excerpt from Soul Deep, a novel recently completed. It’s 1968 and the 12-year-old protagonist [along with his older sister Amanda] has just come from Los Angeles to spend the summer in New Orleans with his great-aunt and great-uncle.)

Uncle Samuel stood up and stretched. “C’mon,” he said, “we’re gonna take a walk.” He opened the front door and stepped into the foyer. “Amelia,” he yelled out as got his hat from the coat closet, “me and Malcolm are goin’ to the club!”

“Sam Jumper, you can’t take that child to that heathen club o’ yours!” she yelled down from the second floor.

“Mind your own business, old woman,” he called back after smiling and winking at me, “we’ll be back in an hour or two.” Uncle Samuel closed the door without waiting for further comment from Aunt Amelia.

We walked down the stairs and down the walk to the sidewalk. Uncle Samuel lit another cigarette as we walked leisurely down the street. Everyone seemed to know Uncle Samuel. People waved from their porches and called out his name. A couple of folks came and shook his hand and he put his hand on my shoulder and, proudly it seemed to me, introduced me as his nephew from California.

“Lots’a good folks in this neighborhood,” Uncle Samuel said proudly at one point. “Didn’t think I would ever take to big city life but now I can’t imagine livin’ anywhere but in this old city.”

We walked down three blocks and then up two to a busy street. We went into a nondescript storefront that was “the club” (it really had no other name I would come to find.) The club was a private men’s club where Uncle Samuel and other men in the neighborhood gathered to drink, smoke cigars and cigarettes, play pool, and, most importantly, socialize. Uncle Samuel would later tell me that it wasn’t exactly legal…it had no liquor license…but it was generally accepted (and the police looked the other way as long as there was no trouble…and the members of the club made sure that troublemakers were dealt with quickly.)

The club was dark and smoky and it took a couple of minutes for my eyes to adjust. There was music…Billie Holiday, B.B. King, Etta James, Jackie Wilson…playing softly from a jukebox in the corner but the predominant sound was that of raucous laughter, jovial teasing, and unabashedly affectionate cursing. The club smelled of beer and sweat, cigar and cigarette smoke, whiskey and leather…it was, I thought at the time, the smell of men.

The men in the club welcomed Uncle Samuel heartily. He introduced me to so many men that I couldn’t possibly remember all of their names. The men ran the gamut of thin to rotund…cream-colored to blue-black…some smiled, some didn’t, but they all made me feel at home. Uncle Samuel bought a bottle of beer for himself and a bottle of grape soda for me. Then Uncle Samuel, a very dark, very muscular man with unsmiling eyes (but with a friendly, if somewhat reserved, demeanor just the same) named Vernon and a squat light-skinned man with freckles and reddish hair (who was, of course, called Red) led me over to one of the two pool tables in the cavernous space. Uncle Samuel, Vernon (who was the only man in the club wearing a tie), and Red patiently taught me how to play pool.

It was dark when Uncle Samuel, Red, Vernon, and an unflaggingly-chipper guy they called (for reasons nobody could really articulate) “Wha’sho” came out of the club. The men shared a few more minutes of talk and then we went our separate ways.

Uncle Samuel put his arm on my shoulder as we walked. “Did you have a good time?”

I smiled up at him. “Yes, sir,” I said truthfully, “that’s a cool club.”

Uncle Samuel gave my shoulder an affectionate squeeze. “Your aunt doesn’t think so,” he said, “but we like it. Sometimes a man’s gotta have a place where there ain’t no women.” I thought I caught just a hint of rueful bitterness in his voice but if it was there it was fleeting.

When we got back to the house, the savory aromas of pork chops, mustard greens, and cornbread greeted us as we opened the door. Amanda, who looked like she was in good spirits, was setting the table in the dining room.

Aunt Amelia peered out from the kitchen trying to affect as stern a face as she could manage. “Bout time you brought your skinny butt home, Sam Jumper,” she said gruffly. “Bad enough you always goin’ off to drink and whatnot wit’ those no-account friends of yours but now you’re exposin’ that poor child to all that sinfulness…”

Uncle Samuel just shook his head and walked over to her. He kissed her dark cheek and then reached around and patted her ample behind. “It smells good up in here, girl,” he said as Aunt Amelia giggled coquettishly before remembering that Amanda and I were there and then she pointedly glared at Uncle Samuel.

“C’mon Malcolm, let’s wash up,” he said, ignoring her look with a rakish smile, heading for the downstairs washroom.

“Aren’t you afraid she’s gonna get really mad at you sometime?” I asked as we washed our hands.

Uncle Samuel chuckled patiently. “Son, me and your Aunt been really mad at each other more times than we c’n count…the trick is that we don’t stay mad at each other for long. Life’s too short to waste on bullshit like stayin’ mad…when push comes to shove we know that we got each other t’ count on no matter what.” He looked down at me and smiled. “Now let’s get out there and get some of them pork chops before they get cold.”

Monday, September 11, 2006

slow dancing (you remember)

yes, you remember...you remember it all...

a dream in languid summer's time,
hot and golden and ever-welcoming...

a frantic journey to salvation,
bright red and soft blue and ever-welcoming....

remember? of course you remember...

the catch in your throat...the longing in your soul...
the staccato rhythm of your yearning heart...
you remember it all...

the touching, gentle and unassuming...
gruff and proprietary;

the touching, every inch of skin softly aflame,
simmering humidly in the moonlight;
the touching, searing wherever flesh
comes into contact with flesh...

too hot for heaven...too sweet for hell...

slow dancing just a hair's breadth
from the edge of the fire...

slow dancing just a heartbeat away
from being utterly consumed

(bring it on...bring it on...)

yeah, you remember...you remember it all...

a million sensations every instant
(how can this be?
oh, who cares?
it is what it is
and it's enough...it's enough)...

a million sensations, rough and gentle...
accommodating and demanding...

hard and soft...cool and fiery...
all at once...and then one after the other...
and all at once again (how can this be...?)

religion found, unabashedly shouted to the night,
words lost, the inadequate languages of man
lost to inarticulately articulate primal telepathy...
sweet absolution in sweat and passion,
in gasped endearments punctuated
with involuntary curses, cries, and whispers;
the universe gone red and hazy...
soft and hard...smooth and hirsute...
wet and deliciously electric...

yeah, you remember...you remember it all...

like it was yesterday (maybe it was)...
like it was forever...


yes, you remember...you remember it all...

a dance as old as time...frantic and deliberate...
soft and sultry and slow...
her hands, his hands...her lips, his lips...
weaving sweet forbidden magic
anywhere, everywhere...

again and (yes, please) again...
over and (oh yes please) over again...

you remember...you remember it all...

Friday, September 08, 2006

We Rise (Five Years Gone)


Of course I remember where I was. I was in Virginia…sleeping late because I had a stuffy head and a slight fever. I was mildly dazed when I woke…completely unaware that our nation had been explosively shaken from its malaise…and didn’t really comprehend the scope of it when told.

I sat…wearing the boxer shorts and t-shirt I had slept in…in front of the TV…CNN…mutely taking it all in and still not really comprehending the scope. Not long after I sat down, the second tower to be hit collapsed in a roaring, terrifying, stupefying cloud of acrid smoke, bodies, and debris before I (or the CNN reporters) really knew what was happening.

My body went cold…my soul went numb…and the world…the world was more of a strange and fearful and awful and heartbreaking place than I could ever remember it being before that moment. And I sat there…numb and horrified and angry and, yes, scared…for hours. I must have spoken during that time...I don't remember doing so though...I do remember holding my granddaughter (all of 8 months old at the time) and giving thanks that she couldn't understand what was going on (of course, I couldn't really understand either.)

Five years later the events of September 11, 2001 still seem surreal and unbelievable. I know they happened…I know that thousands of people in the World Trade Center, in the Pentagon, and aboard four jetliners died in searing fire and awful darkness…but it still seems unreal (if someone had told me on September 10, 2001 what was going to happen the next day I would have laughed and told them they had a vivid imagination.)

Five years later…in the wake of the blood and the fire and the thunder of September 11, 2001…we are at war…with insurgents in Iraq…with extremists in Afghanistan…with the nebulous concept of “terror”…with ourselves as we try to balance our aching need for security, our undeniable political biases, and our precious (but perhaps…at least to some of our leaders…sometimes inconvenient) civil liberties.

Five years later…we remember. Five years later…we reflect. Five years later…we stand, bloodied but not broken. Five years later…and on into the future…our hearts remain steadfast…and we rise…

From the smoldering rubble, we rise,
From the well of bitter tears, we rise,
From the night that seemed without end,
From the day blackened with blood and fire,
We rise…

We give thanks for the light,
Prayers for the souls gone abruptly to God,
Thanks for all the magic and majesty
That lingers even in the face of madness.

From the storied cities, we rise,
From the bountiful fields, we rise,
From the crucible of peace and justice,
From the land of the free and the freedmen,
We rise…

(MKW-2001)

Friday, September 01, 2006

Peaches

(The following piece contains sexual situations featuring people old enough to be your grandparents. You have been warned :-)

“Old man, you so crazy,” Mary said laughing in that full-bodied way that she did when she was truly amused. Even as she was protesting the sudden “assault” she instinctively reached down and turned off the burners on the stove. She was just about to start cooking dinner when Micah had “attacked” her.

Micah smiled devilishly and pressed a little more tightly against Mary’s back. “Got that right, old woman,” he replied, the gravelly rumble of his voice low and husky and earnest. Micah had slipped behind his wife and seized her plump body in a full bear hug. He had nuzzled her neck and worked his crotch against her delightfully round and warm buttocks. He had brought his hands up around her belly and let them cup her full breasts with willful abandon.

Micah nuzzled Mary’s neck, letting the soft bristle of his unruly beard tickle her in that way that made her tingle from her head to her toes. He kissed his way up towards her ear, inhaling the potent mix of her own womanly musk mixed with the soft rosewater she liked so much, and began to hum softly.

Mary felt herself shudder and she closed her eyes. After all these decades, she thought, the old man still could make her melt like a schoolgirl with her first real crush. The grip of his rough, gentle, calloused, caressing hands on her breasts still made her whole body go flush and expectant.

Micah began to sing into her ear…”I really love your peaches, wanna shake your tree”…and they both laughed in that heady, amorous way that they had so many times since the first time they spotted each other across the room at that party so many years ago.

“You too old to be messin’ around like this, Micah Harris,” Mary said in mock-protest, a smile still on her lips and her eyes still closed.

“Ain’t never gon’ be that old, girl,” Micah replied in a husky whisper. “Not as long as I got you.” He nibbled at her earlobe and then began to sing once more, “…really love your peaches, wanna shake your tree…”

Mary sighed and snuggled back into her husband’s comforting, arousing embrace. “What brought this on, old man?” she said, finding her voice despite the breathlessness that she was experiencing. “You been watchin’ that porno channel again?”

“Don’ need no porno channel, woman!” Micah huffed in mock-indignation. “I got me a big ol’ fine gal like you to mess around with, I don’ need nothin’ but that to get me as hot and bothered as a sissy in a C.C. camp…”

Mary laughed heartily at the ancient reference. “You don’t even know what that means,” she teased.

“Know as much as I need to,” he said petulantly, “and that’s all that’s important to me right here and right now…”

Micah released his grasp and turned Mary around. “It ain’t the words that matter, after all now is it?” He put his arms around her waist and drew her close.

“No,” Mary agreed, “now that you mention it, it isn’t …”

And then they kissed…in the meaningful, passionate way that people of a certain age did…no tongues flailing wildly against her other but lips, full and warm, pressing, soft and then hard and then soft again, lips parted just so. They kissed as two people who had fallen in love at first glance still did decades after that first meeting. They kissed as two people sharing sweet, eternal, soul-satisfying energy together did.

“You so crazy, old man…” Mary sighed passionately, reaching up to stroke Micah’s face.

“Yep,” Micah agreed, taking her hand and leading her away from the stove, “still so crazy about you, gal…”

Mary, realizing where he was intending on taking her, resisted half-heartedly. “Micah Harris!” she said, half-aroused, half-scandalized, “We can’t be doing stuff like this in the middle of the day!”

“Stuff like what?” Micah said mischievously as he continued to lead her through the house towards their bedroom.

“You know very well what I’m talkin’ about, old man!” she snapped playfully. “We ain’t kids no more…we can’t be goin’ and…you know…in broad daylight…”

Micah stopped and took his wife’s face in his hands. “We can do anythin’ we want, Mary girl,” he said tenderly. “I love you…and you still make my old pecker hard as a rock…we old, gal, we ain’t dead…” Micah let his hands slip down and cup Mary’s soft behind. He ground his hips against hers, letting her feel the stiffness of his member beneath his trousers. “Don’t even need no Viagra when I got a fine gal like you to stoke my fire,” he said in heated triumph.

Mary felt herself go even warmer and she smiled shyly. “You gon’ be the death of me, Micah Harris…”

They kissed again, passionately, deeply, tenderly. And then they looked into each other’s eyes and smiled like they had smiled into each other’s eyes a million times before.

Mary took Micah’s hand and led him through the door of their bedroom.

Micah smiled and followed her eagerly. He began to hum again as he watched Mary start to unbutton her blouse. “…really love your peaches, wanna shake your tree…” he sang humidly as he unbuttoned his own shirt.