Victor likes to imagine himself as a victim. It gives him some pleasure to think of himself enduring great pain and hardship…especially if he’s suffering for the sake of others.
He knows that it’s not a healthy way to think but he indulges it anyway; it is, he rationalizes, a gentler madness.
Once he wanted to be a hero…heroes save the day and get the girl.
Once he wanted to be a leader…leaders pave the way and make safe the future for those who trust and follow him.
Once he wanted to be a lover…lovers heal the world with their bountiful hearts of love, agape and erotic and sweetly romantic, and everyone loves them just for being.
But now Victor…cognizant of the irony given his name…wants to be a victim, imagining that being a victim will, in turn, make him a lover, a leader, a hero. It’s a gentler madness.
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